Blowing in the Wind...

While these last few weeks of summer have been horrifically hot and stale perhaps the winds of change have slowed a little. I have, for quite some time now, had quite the spring fling crush and there have been so many Red Flags smacking me in the face- yet I kept falling. But alas, the stale stagnate dog days of summer have let the winds die down and now I am feeling the sting of all those flags. So with rosy pink cheeks from all those slaps in the face I am able to finally see it…Gasp!!!

I was falling for Captain Unavailable!!! He is devastatingly handsome with a smile that makes you feel like you are the only girl in the world, he kisses with perfection that goes all the way to your toes, he is smart and driven and when not wanting to rip his clothes off I could talk to him for hours on end about everything and nothing. So what’s the problem you ask??? Well aside from the major flaw of being totally 100% emotionally unavailable- I am talking deep scars to the heart that aren’t going to heal any time soon. He is a total workaholic- I am one that normally finds ambition and passion very sexy but this is crazy- I am talking round the clock. We want very different things out of life, from marriage and children, to politics, to cats versus dogs…

So this past week on a long walk in the heat somewhere between the cute cape-cod and the country club I realized it- I wanted him because I can’t have him and in reality- I don’t really want him at all! And thank goodness I realized it- just in time for the winds of change to blow in my direction and whisk me away to a fabulous weekend with the girls- where the champagne was flowing much like our hair in the breeze and the boys – Oh the boys of summer! I received something like 26 texts, 13 drunken calls and even one drunken email (personally I am a huge fan of the drunken e-mail, that takes some serious focus) and one drop-in this weekend; and all the while I slept all alone in the very middle of my bed exhausted from being fabulous with my best girls! With all those proclamations of (drunken) love/lust/longing and hunger in one instance- why was I wasting my time being hung up on something I don’t even want in the long run?

So oh well- a little time wasted but Labor Day is a few weeks out still so the way I see it- game on boys let’s play! Time to make these last weeks of summer count… here’s hoping I actually am over the Captain!